When I was a kid I said, 'If I'm not an old man with white hair, I can't be a conductor'. But that's not what music comes from. It comes from your soul, your mind, your grit, your experience as a person, and the way you relate to people. There's only one thing you can do when you get to the podium, and if I am a 31-year-old woman who likes to dress like a woman, then I am happy to be that.